released 25 January 2012
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- Track Name: The Wave
I've forgotten idolizing dead poets and ancient scrolls,
their words have never been left ringing in my ears.
You focus more on how words sound than their fucking meaning.
You infect me with this dead weight and my head is far too heavy.
Be straight forward, say what you mean and I'll start listening.
You're trying to be deep; your words are losing value.
- Track Name: Thousand Yard Stare
Normality in adolescence, disaster in maturity, failing to meet their expectations. Clean cut, UC dreaming, all star playing teachers pet: D average, pot smoking, lewd taking delinquent. White collar lifestyle is glorified misery. Reality sets in and you know you should grab the noose, and tie it around your neck, fucking hang until the collars turns blue. A fork in the road, I'm choosing to go straight. Paved paths leave me empty. Inside my head there lies a scrambled egg, it doesn't matter life always ends the same. I'm a picture hanging on the bathroom wall, taking up space, no importance, none at all. The check engine light came on years ago. I was never checked, now look at the repercussions. Take my mind, take my words, give me a lobotomy. No danger to myself or you, give me a lobotomy.
- Track Name: Family Crest
Moving, running away from all the mistresses of yesterdays. Three kids, born and raised on hate and fear despite your absence. WFS: the initials that make me burn inside. Divorcing your wife when you're seventy-five. Don't go to college, come work for me. Don't marry her, she's not on a leash. Talk shit about me to my whole family because I stood up to you when I was only fourteen.
And when my mother was beaten and almost raped on christmas eve, the police accidentally called you. They asked for "Bill," the name you share with my father. When they told you what happened you said "good she deserved it," and I was in the same room.
You're a racist, chauvinistic, fucking asshole. All you've given me is the hate to write this song. You belong in the ground next to your dead second wife, "the only woman you ever loved." And like I said to you after the last time we spoke "I won't be there to lay you to rest, because you're dead in my eyes already."
- Track Name: Pledge
I was one step up on all the rest, now my crutch burns at both ends. I have no control. A passenger plane, spiraling down, taking them all with me. Purple fingerprints appear on pale skin. A hole in the wall. A door ripped off the hinge. A portrait of you and me staring at each other. I'm so in love, but we're so broken hearted. Looking in the dark to find something darker, they all say I'm just looking for peace. Peace does not exist just plastic smiles, unkept promises, too many lies. My heart is my wallet empty and worn. My heart is my wallet black and torn. Burn down the bridges, force isolation. This is my serenity. I just want to be left alone, clear mind, clear soul.
- Track Name: Death Rattle
Lonliness I've never felt.
I long for this to be left out.
My only friend my gun in hand.
My conscious echoes in my head.
"Do not take mine ruin mandkind."
My enemy's the first smile I see.
No joy. No love. No purpose.
I'm fulfilling my own prophecy.
I never in my life wanted a happily ever after, I'm doing what I can to make sure it doesn't happen. Push you in a hole, lock you in a cage. Ignoring my emotions I live selfishly. I never in my life wanted a happily ever after. I'm doing what I can to make sure it doesn't happen. Isolation failed, not enough security. Everything is broken, every fucking thing.
- Track Name: River Snakes
An age old question: why are we here and what is our purpose. Acting like we're all that's important. We're all absent, long forgotten. No one cares, not when we're here, not when we're gone.
We all lead mediocre lives. We're all one in a million, but none of us unique. I am not fucking special, and either are you. It's a fact we can not move past. We don't want to give up, to accept that we're worthless. My head's in the ground my fists still swinging. Insignificant me, insignificant you.